I was at work the other day and it was time for lunch. I went to the fridge in the break room and took my lunch out. I opened the bag and put my container in the microwave to warm up my food. When it was done I went to my desk to start eating. Nothing out of the ordinary. However, when I looked in the bag I saw a note. It was a yellow sticky that read, “Have a good day at work babe. I love you.” Did I mention that my fiance was here visiting? Well, she was. She was here for 10 days from Wednesday before Father’s Day until yesterday morning. Normally, eating leftovers isn’t really a big deal but, there was something special about what was in the bag today. She put love in my lunch. This may not seem like a bog deal to some of you out there reading this but, to me, this was extra special. For starters, I didn’t know she slipped the note in my lunch bag. Second, she did it when I wasn’t really expecting it. Third, I wasn’t in the best mood since my car is acting up, yet again. All I know that there was not in my bag that I did not expect and it was right on time.
This makes me think of Paul’s first letter to the Corinthians. “If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing.” (1 Cor 13:1-2). You see all throughout life we have the opportunity to do things to and for people. We have the chance, every single day to do something good. The key is that you have to do it in love otherwise, what’s the point? If I tell you that I am going to do something for you just to let you know that I did something for you, that’s not what it’s about. If my service to humanity is insistent upon itself, I’m not doing what Paul, more so what Christ has been trying to teach us. In fact, it’s just a bunch of noise for my own gratification. Not cool at all.
I said all of this to say that I love the Love in the Lunch. It really made me feel special and it definitely made my day brighter. I’m looking forward to more of the same and can’t wait until I can’t return the love.
Sometimes, I really dislike trying to be happy. I know that sounds pretty strange but, it’s true. You hear it all of the time, “I’m trying to be happy.” or, “I’m trying to be in a happy place in y life.” The question I want to throw out there today is “why do her have to try so hard to be happy?” Why does it have to take so much effort? Why do we have to waste so much energy just TRYING to be happy? Shouldn’t being happy not require so much effort? Why should we have to do whatever it takes to make us happy? Why can’t happiness just show up? These are some of the questions that I ask myself as I’m just sitting and thinking. What about you?
I wrote an email once. It was long and sort of detailed. I was able to describe my feelings the best way I know how…sometimes. I talked about how I lost this and lost that; how I thought they were this or thought they were doing that. It really was a powerful letter. I mean, I poured my soul–what was left of it–onto my electronic paper. My words were sharp and ready. Was it too much? No. Was I letting all of it out? Sure. I could go on and on about what I could have and should have and actually did say but, the thing of it is this: I never sent it. It stayed right there in my Outbox. Sure I wanted to type the recipient’s address and send it on its way, but I didn’t. The point I’m trying to make here is that there really are things that should be left unsaid. There are some things that need to be carried to God and not to someone else. There are way too many things that we can never take back. True, we can think whatever we want but, once they leave your mouth, all bets are off. It changes everything. That’s one thing I’ve learned in these short years of my life. When you throw those “rocks”, they don’t come back. When you hit send, that email isn’t coming back. Whatever you say has a one-way trip to whomever your saying it to. You have to be careful.
OK, so I’m a little “in my feelings”, as they say, today. I got some news that was great to hear but hard to swallow. The details are irrelevant. Let’s just call them bitter-sweet. I guess the point is that I missed it and feel a certain way about it. Remember the last post about vulnerability? Here it is. Well, here is one of those Romulan qualities that is surfacing. I know there is nothing I can do at this point but, still, it’s hard to accept. “Man up” time is nigh. I can’t really blame the messenger because I did ask so, there is no blame placing. Sometimes humans can get in the way of themselves. I’m using myself as an example.
Let me pose a question. When you get “in your feelings” how do you deal with it? Do you use logic or do you just engage them without thinking? What would cause you to just engage without trying to reason with said feelings? For me, it depends on the circumstances regarding why I’m feeling the way I do. Right now, I want to engage but, I know that there are circumstances regarding the issue. This is where logic really needs to be my best friend. I need logic to sit me down and say, “dude, why are you feeling this way, there was nothing you could do. Besides, it’s not like the news was bad, right?” Yeah, the duality of the kindred ancestry between Romulans and Vulcans is a beast to contend with. Especially when they reside in the same space…