What does it take?

Sometimes, I really dislike trying to be happy.  I know that sounds pretty strange but, it’s true.  You hear it all of the time, “I’m trying to be happy.” or, “I’m trying to be in a happy place in y life.”  The question I want to throw out there today is “why do her have to try so hard to be happy?”  Why does it have to take so much effort? Why do we have to waste so much energy just TRYING to be happy?  Shouldn’t being happy not require so much effort? Why should we have to do whatever it takes to make us happy?  Why can’t happiness just show up?  These are some of the questions that I ask myself as I’m just sitting and thinking.  What about you?

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Thursday Rant

Well, here we are.  Approaching another summer.  So far, things are pretty much even keel for me. Definitely some challenges that I had to overcome.  Still, new challenges are ahead so for that, I am grateful.

I think I’m really going to try something new this time around.  I’m really going to rely on my faith.  Now, I know this is probably sounding strange coming from me but, let’s face it; we ALL have issues with faith and its lack of use.  The Bible teaches us, “And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.” (Heb 11:6)  This being said, we have to learn to adjust our faith so that it is at the forefront of our decision-making.  Lately, I have tried to use my faith but, I got in the way.  Too early, in fact.  God will always do things in His time and, when we deviate from that, it can prove disastrous.  You end up missing out on things that you could have very well had, if only you would have just waited.  I am a true witness to this.  I lost what would have been mine but I rushed it.  I was way too eager to seize the opportunity.  Was it fear? Was it pride? Was it selfishness?  Was it even all three?  Those are questions that we have to ask ourselves when we’re faced with this type of situation.  What am I afraid of if I wait? What happens when it doesn’t happen and how will that make me look?  What’s wrong with me having this? Everybody else does.  I WANT ONE TOO!!

Last time I spoke about removing the bandage in order to heal.  Well, this goes hand in hand with that.  The healing process has to begin but you have to trust God that He will heal whatever pain you have, regardless of whether it was self-induced or not.  Paul told the church in Corinth that he had a vision as well as a thorn in his side.  Apparently it was pretty annoying since he asked God to remove it three times.  This is when God spoke to him in verse 9, “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” (2 Cor 12:9)  This means that, even though I am going through a period, even though my heart may be aching, and even though I feel like it can’t any better, God’s grace is sufficient.  It always has been, it always will be.  We just to trust and have faith that it is so…

Bucket List: A Review

A friend of mine had been hounding me on seeing the movie, The Bucket List. “It’s a great movie. Trust me, you’ll need tissue”, she says. I told her I would check it out because I’m always up for a great movie. Well, being the procrastinator that I am, I hadn’t gotten around to watching it–even though she kept reminding me. Well last week, I come to work and find a copy on my desk. She has actually gone and bought one! Now there was no excuse…lol. So, I made it my business to definitely watch this movies that will supposedly jerk my tears and pull on my heart-strings. Here’s where it gets interesting. I had to attend a funeral for a friend and classmate of mine this past weekend. Sometime on Saturday afternoon I got a phone call from my friend “apologizing profusely” as she put it, about trying to make me watch this movie that apparently had some dealing with death as part of the premise of the movie. Since this was Easter weekend, and since I had to work late on Monday, I decided to watch it Monday morning.

I watched the movie and was definitely not disappointed. In fact, I really enjoyed it! To answer your questions, no I did not need tissue because, like I told my friend, “I cried when Bane broke Batman’s back in Dark Knight Rises and not for stuff like this” (insert snicker). I did admit, however, that I was very moved by the movie and was definitely worth her investment. Actually, I was very appreciative that she got a copy for me because I probably would not have bought it. She gets major Kudos for this.

Now, back to the post. After watching this movie, I realized a few things. First, EVERYONE should have a bucket list. Second, everyone’s list will be different. Third, the list itself does not have to be big but should be powerful enough to have some meaning to your life. Last, do your absolute best to complete it. In the movie, Jack Nicholson’s character had a list that was mainly fun and was to be exhilarating while Morgan Freeman’s character had a list that was more rehabilitative (think 12 steps). Jack’s character wanted to skydive while Morgan’s character wanted to “witness something majestic”. By the end of the movie, it was as if their lists traded writers. One thing that stood out though, was that they each had a respect for each other’s list. I don’t want to give too much of the story away but I will say this–each one of us wants to adventure and each one of us wants closure. While one may be greater than the other, sometimes the two can be intertwined or, relative, as it were. If you take anything from this, make sure it’s the part about making The List. It may do you some good…